plan for the week

bit stressed, it's my brothers 19th birthday on wednesday and i haven't gotten him anything nor do i know how i'm meant to afford a present. spent most of my money from this week and i won't get paid before his birthday. #DILEMMAAA
i also don't know what to get him in the first place. i'm the worst at shopping for people.
so i have to find a present for him like, asap.

mum is going to call the gym tomorrow and see if there is still a 'no joining fee' deal going on. if not i'll either have to wait to join or pay mum back. but i'd really like to join this week. i've remembered just how much i hate tweed valley sport, so i'd like to leave every wednesday afternoon and go to the gym as well. that way i'd ACTUALLY be doing exercise and not be miserable. i hope i can join this week though, i really do.
i also need to eat healthy again. my period is over now and my chocolate cravings are gone, so my aim is to eat smaller, healthy meals.

on friday when i get paid i'm going to buy a set of scales and decorate them with pretty stuff. i want to weigh myself every day and my aim is to lose 5kg. i honestly think i'm so fat and i want to be stick thin. i also need to stop drinking, smoking and doing drugs so much, but it really is hard.

i got a few results back last week in relation to work i did last term and over the holidays.
i got:
13/15 in an english task
9.5/10 in an english assignment
38/40 in a science assignment.
i should be getting more results back this week for science and history, and when i do i'm going to take all these results to mum, and and tell her i deserve a new piercing. she keeps saying no because i stretch my lobes and she asks me not to, but i deserve more holes.

hair products

because i don't dye my hair every third day like i used to, there's not too much i get excited over with my hair. but today i bought new repairing shampoo and conditioner, butter repair mask and heat protectant spray. i got so excited i like rushed home so i could wash and treat my hair.
i've also been wearing my hair differently lately. i've started wearing my extensions again but i also cut them and my hair, and wear it differently around my ears now. it's hard to explain, i'll upload a photo soon. man, i need these foils. dying of boredom.

GETTING FIT, I SWEAR I SWEAR

mummy has offered to go halves with me in the ridiculous cost that is involved with joining a good gym. so soon i will be spending any spare time i have at the gym instead of watching tv eating rubbish. the hardest part i think will be to change my eating habits back. i'm the worst eater and i hope i can change that :/ i enjoy chocolate more than sex.

adoring the winter weather!

i used to hate the cold, but i'm loving it lately. i get to wear my daggy jumpers everywhere and snuggle with my boyfriend on cold nights. i also love winter food. my favourite meals are my mum's roast dinners and mulligatawny soup, and they are only really winter foods, too hot in summer D;

school is going pretty well, but i so can't be bothered to do any work anymore.. year ten is just so pointless, i can't wait to get to senior school and study what i want to. AND DROP MATH!
i can't wait for my real life to start.

i need more money!

gshjojfdjk so much to buy and i hate it.
so most weeks, unless i pick up extra shifts (which is rare) i earn $100 per week. i've recently realised this is not enough money to live off. i put away $50 p/wk for my laptop that i'm saving for. this will continue for the better part of this year. then each week i have to put money away for my credit, i go to a lot of parties so i spend a lot of money on alcohol, weed and cigarettes, and i always buy unnecessary things as well as bad food such as mcdonald's every time i go out. this week i am completely broke because last week i spent all my money while drunk.

once i have enough for my laptop (and mum is putting a few hundred in as a christmas present) i need to save for a camera and then a car. i think i might ask for a camera as a birthday present in february next year though. i also need a new ipod and really want a classic, and i want a new phone, mine is a piece of shit.

i just have to work on not spending my money on pointless shit :(

i think

i will start blogging again.

pampering myself tonight!

i washed my hair before and now it feels lovely. i ran out of conditioner a week or so ago and haven't gotten around to buying a new one, so i've been using treatments as conditioner. it's sooooo good. my hair is beautiful and healthy and i can't wait to go blonde again, it will be fantastic. i'm going to slowly get more and more blonde streaks till my hair is natural blonde with brown steaks. going to be expensive..
i also have a full tub of atomic turquoise manic panic that Juleyin bought me for my birthday when i had pink and blue hair. i never used it and i really want to considering it was a birthday gift and he had to order it in. once i'm blonde i'll do the tips and some streaks blue. work shouldn't mind.

after i washed my hair i used a facemask. i did a drama performance today for an assessment task and we had to be clowns. we went over to the primary school next to our school and performed for the kindergarten kids. they loved it.

the clown makeup would have dried out my skin quite badly so the facemask helped a fair bit :) my skin felt and looked so wonderful afterwards.

then i waxed my eyebrows! mum bought me some mini wax strips because i hate how expensive it is to get my eyebrows waxed at the hairdressers or beauty salon. they work really well and i feel so much better now because i hate thick eyebrows and get very insecure about it. i did them realllllly thin this time.

then i painted my nails a lovely green colour. i bought some good nail polish a few weeks back, and i was pretty mad at myself for spending my money. it was only $8 but that is quite a bit to me for just nail polish. so i painted them, and realised that good polish is worth the money - they didn't streak and look so pretty. just hope i don't get sheet marks tonight, i always seem to when i paint my nails at night.

to end my wonderful night i had a delicious steak burger for dinner with egg and salad.

you have no idea how happy i am.