i need friends other than my boyfriend. #foreveralone

you couldn't make me feel alright if you stapled your tongue to my clit and stood on a cement mixer.

"i don't just smoke weed, i wear it"

^ todd reiterating how hippie i apparently am. hahahaha!
can't wait for this trip. because some huge festival is on over easter in the place we wanted to stay at, we've changed location. we are now going to nimbin for a few days, and it also happens to be weed central. i could not be happier about this. i'm going to do so much shopping, you have no idea. i plan on getting funky souvenirs, a tonne of hemp clothing and a really nice bag.

and i want to do some experimenting.

so incredibly sick!!

not even kidding. a few days ago i went to bed feeling rather shit, but expected to sleep it off. then i woke up the next morning and still felt sick. then the next day i had work, which most likely wore me out. not to mention the fact i got pretty fucked up right after and then had to go home and go straight to bed because i felt like utter shit. today i woke up sick again, and oh my god my nose is that blocked etc that when i woke up my septum was actually stuck. ahahahaha.
i spent the day watching skins, cuddling with juleyin, knitting, cleaning and smoking weed in my backyard. it was pretty lovely, except for the feeling like crap bit. i'm also a little peeved off because i was only cleaning the whole bloody house because we had an inspection on at 4 o'clock. then at 3 mum calls me telling me it was cancelled. hmph.
then juleyin got called into work. apparently he was meant to be working tonight, but we both swear he wasn't working again until saturday, that's why he was staying over tonight in the first place, we were so happy. so the poor thing had to go into work half-stoned :( but he's coming back over here after he finishes work at 10, so that's a plus. he left all his stuff here, including his laptop, which is why i'm writing this now.

today i finished two whole disks of the third season of skins. i'm not getting into it as much as i used to, which saddens me. merh. i hate television.

BEWBZ

happy, but sick!

yesterday was pretty wonderful, but i ended up being at school for far longer than i wanted to be. ran around to literally every classroom in the school looking for the teachers i needed to hand assignments to. also got my year ten shirt, it's tiny and i'm in love with it. i can't wait to get my lower navel pierced so i can show off my pretty midriff. without any piercings in my tummy i hate showing it off for some reason. like, i feel it's too bland or something. after we went to school yesterday juleyin and i saw jamesy, who is one of our best friends who moved to sydney at the start of the year. we used to have parties at his house all the time, and it was so much fun. he's a bit of a weed fiend so we always had chops at his house and went places, it was great. anyway he moved back and now lives on the corner of the street our school is on! hope i don't wag and go see him. so we went there and chilled for a bit, and then juleyin and i went to tweed mall because i needed to go to the bank. i opened up a new youthsaver account and set up my netbanking. i'm pretty excited. once this trip is over i'm going to start putting $50 away per week into this new account, because i'm saving for a new laptop which i need so bad. then hopefully in a few months i will have it! ^-^ mummy said she'll put a few hundred in as an early christmas present. and now that i set up netbanking i can transfer the money as soon as i get paid so that way i don't accidentally spend it :D

keen.

then after the bank yesterday we went back to juleyin's house and had some food, then layed in bed for an hour or so. it was so lovely, and i had the most wondrous power nap. then i came home and took some photos because i needed new ones.

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^cuuuhlearly.

in holiday mode,

it's pretty snazzy.
tomorrow is my last "official" day of school, but fuck going. i think i'll duck in for a few minutes to hand in some assignments, cos well i have to or i fail the course.. but anyway. i'm planning on bribing my boyfriend into driving me because i could no where near be bothered to walk down to school and then catch a bus to his anyway, so hopefully that works out. i'm not sure if i have to sign in as a visitor or just not sign in at all? i'll just walk in, hand it in and be gone.

this was taken today in the car, looking pretty bitchin' in my school uniform.

new topic.
holy mother of jesus. my computer is actually proper fucked. or, was. we got it back today, and it's been completely reformatted. i was so scared that i had lost all my photos, but luckily the guy backed it all up before wiping the computer. i also don't exactly know how to use wordpress, but it's really for my own benefit so i'm not too bothered. i just wish it would look prettier. my luck with technology is the worst, dead set.

english "conflict" story.

Me, First.

“Oh, shut it Alex,” said Cassandra, pacing in utter frustration. “I’m sick of your irresponsible actions leaving us in the shit.” Cassandra was the controlled one of the pair, the one to do her homework, to say ‘no’, more or less. Alex believed in ‘living in the moment’, which usually leaved them in serious trouble. Perhaps Alex saw Cassandra as her safety net, knowing she’d be there to pick up the pieces after she’d had her fun.

“Cassandra, breakfast! Get down here!” exclaimed their mother, Anna, though some would not have given her that title, considering her ignorance. “Yes, Anna?” Cassandra said anxiously as she entered the kitchen. She hadn’t called her ‘mum’ since she was old enough to understand emotional abuse, or the pain her mother caused her with her incompetence. Though she slightly resented Anna, she still had a great deal of respect for her, and more than anything, an immense fear of her. “Did you have a good night, then?” Anna said sternly. Cassandra gave an expression of over-exaggerated confusion. “Where did you sneak off to? Do you have any idea how dangerous that is? The kind of trouble you could have gotten yourself into?”
“It was Alex! I had nothing to do with it, talk to her about it!” said Cassandra, defensively.
“Cassandra Jaid Stephens, don’t you dare try and blame your own stupidity on this so called ‘illness’ you’ve convinced yourself you have.” These words made little to no sense to Cassandra.
“What on earth are you talking about? I don’t have any illness! Look, the only reason I even told you about Alex was because I was scared she would start talking to you. YOU were the one who went berserk and sent me to the doctor.” After a long pause, Anna spoke.
“Look, Cassandra, this is hard for me you know. Have you been taking your medication?”
“Yes.” replied Cassandra, harshly.
“Ok well I think it’s time we took another trip to see Doctor Phillips,” continued Anna, “you’re clearly not coping.” Cassandra walked off silently back to her room, having already blocked out the rest of the world.

Once Cassandra got back to the safety and privacy of her own room, she sat down on her bed, preparing to cry vigorously. Then, of course, after Cassandra had dealt with all the consequences, Alex returned.
“Ha-ha, that was intense!” Alex mocked. Cassandra marched to the mirror and stared into the reflection with complete fury. “Have you any idea the trouble you cause me? Ugh, you just don’t understand, Alex!” Cassandra began pacing, and then stopped and looked in the mirror again. “Just out of curiosity, what did we get up to last night?”
“Oh my god it was sooo fun,” Alex gushed. “We met up with Michael and Liam, and then we went to this party. There was some pills, some sex, but UGH it was amazing. Anyway I won’t bore you with the details.”
“Are. You kidding me.” Cassandra stood, completely shocked. “I.. I actually can’t believe you.”
“Oh come on Cass, it was just a bit of fun! It was totally fine, we were safe.”
“You say fun, I say suicide!” Cassandra sat down again, now more sad than angry.
“Ok, I’m sorry,” Alex began. “I know we don’t always get along, but seriously sis, you need to blow off some steam once in a while. You work yourself to the bone with school and study, and let’s face it; we have a bitch for a mother. She doesn’t even believe I exist! Come out with me tonight, nothing crazy, just getting away from everything. I promise I won’t kick you out like last night.”
Cassandra sighed. “Fine, but no funny business.”
“Yes!! It’ll be great, I promise.”
“So what’s the plan?”
“Ok so there’s this party tonight, underground. Best rave scene there is.”
“How far away, Alex?”
“Only a few hours’ drive I swear. We’d be back by tomorrow, maybe mid-morning?”
“Ok fine, but only one problem, we don’t have a car?”
“Already sorted out. Some friends will pick us up this afternoon, tell Anna we’re staying at a friend’s house, it is Friday after all.”
“Yeah, like she’d buy that. She’s already pissed enough at me!”
“Ok, let me talk to her then,” Alex said confidently. “Please, Cass. I won’t screw this up, I promise.”

Alex almost stalked down the stairs, overjoyed yet amused at the fact she had gotten her own way. She skipped into the lounge room where she found Anna reading some rubbish tabloid, Alex tried not to giggle.
“Hey Anna, I’m going to stay at a friends’ house tonight, that cool?”
“You’re kidding me, right?” Anna replied, looking at Alex over the top of her glasses.
“Nope.” Alex replied, smugly.
“Absolutely not, you were gone all of last night. With all due respect, I don’t even know what goes through your head sometimes.”
“With no due respect whatsoever, I’m seventeen years old. I have every right to go out when I please. And I am going out tonight.” Alex walked cheerfully out of the room.
Anna was absolutely dumbfounded. Never had her daughter spoken to her with such disrespect, it was like she was a completely different person.

Alex returned to her bedroom. Immediately Cassandra said “Oh my gosh!! I can’t believe you just said that. I’m furious, but, good work.” Alex walked over to the mirror and winked.
“Come on,” she said, “let’s go to school.

When Cassandra returned from school, she was in the most wondrous mood. She had let Alex voice her opinion all day, and she felt so confident because of it. The two girls were finally getting along, and they were both happy because of it. A few hours passed, and they walked out the door holding a backpack, without saying a word to Anna. Alex took charge and started walking down the street.
“Ok, so exactly where are we going?” Cassandra asked, now starting to let her paranoia shine through.
“But ah, isn’t that half the fun?” Alex said, grinning to herself as they walked towards the city lights.