shaved head and a lonely bed

today josie and i went on a picnic, it was beautiful. i have had a wonderful weekend.
last night i was with meg and gage, and we ended up driving up to see a friend of mine. didn't do all that much but i had a fantastic time.

so my appearance has changed a little over the last few weeks. a few weeks ago i cut my hair much shorter than it was, and bleached the top parts, leaving the underlayers black. i then dyed the top layers bright orange. i have also fallen in love with fake tanning, and the last week i shaved the sides of my head. i am so happy with the result. change is always welcome for me.



above is a better view of each side of my hair/head.

outfit featured in this post~:

choker - ebay

lace patterned shirt - vintage (passed down to me)
skirt - mink pink

opaque stockings - cotton on

thigh-high stockings - miss shop (myer)

platform shoes - payless shoes

nothing and everything

i realise i haven't been blogging very often as of late - mostly because i thought i had nothing to blog about.
but then there's so much that goes on in just my every day life that i don't write down, because i think it isn't relevant.
just then i realised - i don't even give a fuck.
this blog is for me and me alone, i just like when others read it. it's just my way of documenting things, letting things out and sharing with the world my interests and thoughts.

today is saturday. this morning i bleached my hair, cleaned my room really well and then met up with stormey at tweed city because she finished work at 2:30.
i actually love storme to death. all of my good friends are males and she is the only female i can actually stand, and the only one i truly enjoy hanging out with. maybe not the only one, but she is friends with my friends and enjoys doing the things i do, and she is just really cool. we both have never been to sport on thursday afternoons for school, and most of the time we just get a bus or a lift into coolangatta and storme gets new piercings. i want more piercings, so bad. but mum wouldn't let me, i haven't asked but things with us are so shit lately, she treats me like an imbecile and is hesitant of letting me go out for some reason. so i don't want to start shit when i don't have to.
i am enjoying this weekend because i have been sober and at home for the majority of it, but at the same time i hate it.
i need more motivation to do things. at least i bleached my hair today, and i only cleaned my room because mum said i had to before i went out. this week i want to go to the gym, take photos, wax my eyebrows, give myself a manicure/pedicure and stretch my right ear. i could have done all of that last night and today but i have no motivation, when i am at home i never do anything. i also think i am an alcoholic, i swear to god. i am craving a drink so badly.
i wish i could drink at home, and smoke, but i'm also glad i can't - otherwise i would probably be drunk every day.

which brings me to another topic - drugs.
i have only ever done weed and speed, and i used to be stoned alllll the time. there are huge gaps in my memory from last year because of it. i remember one holidays i was stoned every single day and after two weeks my boyfriend and i could not remember a thing.
anyway, my point is that i hate smoking weed now.
i got high at school the other week, i don't even know why i was having a cigarette and someone passed me a joint. the whole time i was just wishing i was sober, i spent most of the next period outside the classroom sleeping. i felt horrible and tired and ugh, how did i used to function while high?
i only like the thought of smoking weed, not the act itself. or if i'm about to go to sleep that's wonderful to just chill out - but i can't stand being stoned in public.

i'm not sure what the point of this post was, i just wanted an update on my life, my everything.

beauty products i want!

omg so many. next week i want to save as much money as possible but i want to definitely buy a lovely bath set with some lotions etc. i need to take more care of my skin in winter. i already have super sensitive skin and i have lots of allergies and get all kinds of rashes if my skin doesn't stay hydrated or comes into contact with certain things (eg hairspray). in winter my skin is already dry and i have to pay special attention to my hands in particular. every night before bed i put lotion on my hands and it really does make a difference. i also want to stop letting long pants get the best of me. because it's winter my legs are almost always covered by jeans, track pants or tights and because of this fact i never seem to shave my legs anymore. my poor boyfriend.
but because of this, my legs dry out. i only seem to moisturize my legs when they're smooth because otherwise they feel gross to touch etc and this means they're nearly always dry. so i will attempt to shave more regularly and, In turn, make my legs smooth. i also REALLY want to buy that new dove 7 day moisture cream. i realise it won't last a week but i think it would be heaps good. i'm going to try not to buy too much with next weeks pay, at least now i know the gym has a scale i don't have some cos they're expensive. just gonna buy some lotions etc and a compact mirror for my makeup purse, i'll buy some stickers from work and cover it and make it cute. i want to know where i can buy marijuana stickers. anyone??? might have to even order some online.
i'm glad i didn't buy that hair dye the other day. i think i might finally be getting my foils done on the weekend, but i don't know if i should dye all of my hair the one colour first?
anyway, wish me luck.