pure hate

i have spent this evening bumming around, taking photos and playing with photoshop.
in the above photos i am wearing my boyfriends "pure hate" tshirt that he gave to me, it's so long that i wear it as a dress and so damn comfy. can't decide if i want to alter it or not, it's a dream to wear.
today i got a hair cut, and i am very happy with the result. it's a bit shorter, but that just means it will grow better. i am also growing my layers out and i am in love with my fringe, we pushed it back further so it goes right to my ears - and i don't have stupid front bangs.

i'm afraid things haven't been going so well lately. my moods have dropped dramatically, and the things that seem to make me feel better are either horrible for my body or horrible for my mental stability. i wish i could explain further but i'm afraid i just can't.
words are failing me again, my mind is failing me again. i have all these circulating feelings and no words to describe the way i feel. i am in constant pain and i don't know what to do or why i'm even feeling like this.
whatever.
as far as school and my personal life goes, things are relatively sweet. i have gotten organised again, and started using my planner every day like i used to - the difference it makes is remarkable. i live by my planner, if it is in there i will have more chance of doing it than if a gun was pointed to my head. i also have finished most of my assignments and outstanding work to be done - and i am working on forming a regular study routine. i am also working on a major textiles & design project due in about a months time, and i am so happy with how it's coming along, and the ideas i have for it.
the 2nd of may also marked two months for zacc and i. he's so wonderful, he treats me so well. to celebrate we went out shopping and i got a few gorgeous things including new makeup, nail polish, a few chokers and the most gorgeous dress which i will make a post about when i am able to get some decent shots of myself in it.
also have a few garments that i am working on (mainly old clothes that i am altering), and i am excited to see them finished. will upload photographs then.

bits and pieces

today is ANZAC day. this doesn't hold much relevance to me, i am thankful and all that but my family doesn't really do anything special to celebrate. this morning we went for brunch at my nan & pop's house, it was nice and i am happy because i didn't eat a single thing.
afterwards we came home and then went off to the shops because i needed a few things - i am off to biology camp tomorrow morning and would not have gotten another chance. i bought a new memory card for my digital camera so i can take it to camp with me, comfy underwear, new foundation and lip gloss, slippers and the cutest white beanie.
a lot of these items weren't even for camp but i just couldn't resist. it was just my mother and i when we bought these too, i love spending time with her.

i was looking forward to camp but now i am uncertain. i have been feeling plain horrible today with no reason why. i had an awful dream, which didn't start the day off well, and i have had excruciating pains in my stomach for days now. i also had to take painkillers this morning, which did not sit well with me. i hate pain medication after all it put my body through.

anyway, because of camp i won't be updating for a few days, but (if i get service out there) i will be posting on twitter, which you can follow here if you'd like :-)



beanie!



smile smile, medusa wants to hide behind septum



new foundation and lip gloss :-)