and it will be the death of me.
ok it's the only conclusion i can come up with. i'm always fucking shit up, i'm always so determined to make the worst decision possible. i'm too greedy and too stupid. i need to change. i want to change my whole life and i want to change my personality. i can't believe how i treat people, and i can't believe how hard it is to stop it.
i'm a pathological liar and a self-destructive whore.