overnight camping trip

a delayed post as this was the other day, but anyway. over the weekend a few friends and i went camping just for the night at a lovely spot by the river. there was alcohol, a fire, a sound system and good people. there was a bit of teen drama but that's to be expected. overall it was a good night.

engagement party

taken 22/6/12.

so last friday night i went to a party to celebrate the engagement of my two good friends zac and sam. they are young but they are happy and therefore i am happy for them. i had not eaten that day, so things got a little messy for me, but overall it was a good night.
there was a cute guy there too, mark, who zac told me liked me. we made out a little and i gave him my number but i have not heard from him since. oh well.














even though i look as drunk and messy in these photos as i was, i love these people and i love how happy i look in these photos.

shaved head and a lonely bed

today josie and i went on a picnic, it was beautiful. i have had a wonderful weekend.
last night i was with meg and gage, and we ended up driving up to see a friend of mine. didn't do all that much but i had a fantastic time.

so my appearance has changed a little over the last few weeks. a few weeks ago i cut my hair much shorter than it was, and bleached the top parts, leaving the underlayers black. i then dyed the top layers bright orange. i have also fallen in love with fake tanning, and the last week i shaved the sides of my head. i am so happy with the result. change is always welcome for me.



above is a better view of each side of my hair/head.

outfit featured in this post~:

choker - ebay

lace patterned shirt - vintage (passed down to me)
skirt - mink pink

opaque stockings - cotton on

thigh-high stockings - miss shop (myer)

platform shoes - payless shoes

casual gathering

on the weekend i attended a gathering at my friend's house. luckily he lives in the next street from me, so getting home etc wasn't really an issue. things got a little out of hand unfortunately, i drank far too much and broke my streak of no drugs. messy messy. none the less, i had a quite pleasant night and rather enjoyed myself.

i have decided not to drink for a while though, my liver already has permanent damage done to it and i have been drinking at least once a week even since i got out of hospital for liver problems. i really need to start taking care of myself. i have also recently discovered there are very few foods i can eat - lately i have felt awfully sick after eating/drinking dairy products and i feel so sick if i have carbohydrates or anything that tends to expand in your stomach (breads etc). i have stopped eating fast food/crap and i've been drinking a lot more water. feel so clean.

anyway, here's some photos from the party. :-)

i love meg! (Kind of Lovely)

sarah's 18th - dress up party.

sorry this post is rather delayed, my laziness has gotten the best of me lately i'm afraid. last saturday night i went to the first good party i've been to in quite a while. my friend Sarah had just turned 18 so we had a gathering at a friends place. there was an actual DJ which made the whole atmosphere a lot better, and there was excellent company there. it was themed - dress up as a character off a movie. i went as Kayako from one of my favourite horror film series, The Grudge. i didn't have much time with my costume but i was happy with the result. the story goes that Kayako is brutally murdered by her husband while she is wearing a white night gown, and in a lot of scenes in the movie she is wearing this night gown, and it is covered in blood. i attempted to recreate this by buying a cheap satin gown from a thrift store and covering it in fake blood.

above is an image of me in my costume with my friend Liam. unfortunately the only photos i got from this night are bad quality, oh how i wish i had a decent camera. hopefully by next year.

one of my best friends, Josie, who was dressed as Ariel from the Little Mermaid.

group shot ~ Sarah as a bumble bee, myself, Josie and Maddy as Sailor Moon.

on the way home in the taxi we stopped in at maccas for some drunken cravings and binged on a double cheeseburger. ultimately, it was a good night and i am glad i went.

luke's 18th

just a little gathering at my friend luke's house, we used to be a lot closer than we are now, sort of miss him. conveniently he lives literally in the next street from me, so i could walk home for work the next day. this was saturday night.

i also saw meg there (http://kindoflovely.com) and we had some good chats, as well as rhiannon and i, whom i haven't seen in quite a while. i had a few drinks, and didn't stay for that long. i would have loved to stay all night and get really drunk but i had work the next day, sucks.



before leaving to go to the party, i wore high-waisted jeans with a floral lace shirt and a beautiful, daggy comfy jacket. idek why i just love that jacket. oh and my favourite pointy shoes :-)



a compilation of photos off my phone of me and todd... he drunkenly confessed to me that at one stage he liked me and kept making dirty jokes and hitting on me. i love todd but that kinda crossed the line for me.



selfies in the bathroom (idek)??



made up with storme as well obvs



took this upon arriving home. lol drunk lol

friday the 21st of october and saturday the 22nd.

yesterday was so good man. like, on so many levels.

on thursday night i had work, so afterwards juleyin picked me up and stayed at mine that night. on friday morning we got up and i cleaned the bathroom (like scrubbed it) and juleyin helped me tidy the rest of the house, sort of.

by the time we left it was like 12:30-1pm.
juleyin had to get a refund on his computer so we went there and while juleyin was arguing with the sales assistant i took a nice rest on a comfy chair.
then after harvey norman i went to a fabric shop :-)
i told juleyin if i have to deal with his boring shit he has to deal with mine. side note: there is a new "lincraft" opening at tweed mall soon, i am so excited i love anything to do with art and craft and i particularly love scrap-booking. i really need to get back into it.
while i was at the fabric store i picked up 62cm of studs on mesh, (i will write a separate post a bit later once the garment i'm making is finished), some lace trim for the neckline of this beautiful velvet dress i have, and i also got a lovely cross necklace. we were in there for at least 40 minutes and i have never felt more at home. i just can't wait for my final assessment to be over (it will be over by the end of this friday), and then i can focus a bit more on my sewing, my art and my blogging.

then we headed back to juleyin's and slept for about an hour and a half while we were waiting for elle to come into town. she called me a little later and told me she was there so we went and picked her up and went to kirra hill to start the bbq.



elle and i waiting for the others lol



me looking emo with a smoke and the pretty view behind me

~lots of pointless events happened~
oh and elle and i wrote a rap, it's mad. we are going to sing it when we audition for australia's got talent.

the bbq was good, no one was even drinking we were just eating yummy food, cracking jokes and lighting shit on fire. my kind of chilled hang between friends.

after the bbq we went back to jazmine and joel's house. ellen got food poisoning so we took her home, and that meant that i wasn't staying at her house.
jazmine went to bed inside pretty early, i think she was mad that we were all making noise because she had work the next day. i felt bad but she was inside and that was probably the best thing for her to sleep i guess.

as the night wore on it got to fewer and fewer of us and in the end it was me, joel, juleyin and zane. we did all kinds of random fucked up shit, mostly watching youtube videos and making jokes and taking shots.



lol joel putting eyeliner on and myself teasing my hair



the end result...

we also got tonnes of funny photos on joel's nikon, i hope he will upload them or give them to me sometime soon.
we have never really hung out before that night, he is quite a cool, chilled guy. and he kept calling me "effy" because apparently i'm awesome and up for anything. i feel so good about myself when people tell me i'm fun.

we also went on a massive adventure and did random shit like put those orange cones on the top of street signs...
i also lost my phone in a massive drain tunnel and it took us about an hour of retracing our steps to find it again. i was fucking freaking out man.

then when we got home joel and i smoked some hash and everyone else was just chilling. we were looking at the lazers and smoke machine for ages and i felt like i was one with the earth or some bullshit, i have not smoked weed in a very long time and i'm glad it wasn't a bad experience.

we all woke up between 8am and 9am, when we went to bed at around 5am. we jumped in the pool to get over our hangovers and it was the best decision of my entire life.

 



here is just a random photo of like my arm. idek i really like this photo for some reason.

nothing and everything

i realise i haven't been blogging very often as of late - mostly because i thought i had nothing to blog about.
but then there's so much that goes on in just my every day life that i don't write down, because i think it isn't relevant.
just then i realised - i don't even give a fuck.
this blog is for me and me alone, i just like when others read it. it's just my way of documenting things, letting things out and sharing with the world my interests and thoughts.

today is saturday. this morning i bleached my hair, cleaned my room really well and then met up with stormey at tweed city because she finished work at 2:30.
i actually love storme to death. all of my good friends are males and she is the only female i can actually stand, and the only one i truly enjoy hanging out with. maybe not the only one, but she is friends with my friends and enjoys doing the things i do, and she is just really cool. we both have never been to sport on thursday afternoons for school, and most of the time we just get a bus or a lift into coolangatta and storme gets new piercings. i want more piercings, so bad. but mum wouldn't let me, i haven't asked but things with us are so shit lately, she treats me like an imbecile and is hesitant of letting me go out for some reason. so i don't want to start shit when i don't have to.
i am enjoying this weekend because i have been sober and at home for the majority of it, but at the same time i hate it.
i need more motivation to do things. at least i bleached my hair today, and i only cleaned my room because mum said i had to before i went out. this week i want to go to the gym, take photos, wax my eyebrows, give myself a manicure/pedicure and stretch my right ear. i could have done all of that last night and today but i have no motivation, when i am at home i never do anything. i also think i am an alcoholic, i swear to god. i am craving a drink so badly.
i wish i could drink at home, and smoke, but i'm also glad i can't - otherwise i would probably be drunk every day.

which brings me to another topic - drugs.
i have only ever done weed and speed, and i used to be stoned alllll the time. there are huge gaps in my memory from last year because of it. i remember one holidays i was stoned every single day and after two weeks my boyfriend and i could not remember a thing.
anyway, my point is that i hate smoking weed now.
i got high at school the other week, i don't even know why i was having a cigarette and someone passed me a joint. the whole time i was just wishing i was sober, i spent most of the next period outside the classroom sleeping. i felt horrible and tired and ugh, how did i used to function while high?
i only like the thought of smoking weed, not the act itself. or if i'm about to go to sleep that's wonderful to just chill out - but i can't stand being stoned in public.

i'm not sure what the point of this post was, i just wanted an update on my life, my everything.